A Soldier’s Journey

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Memorial Day Remembrance: Evolving as a Soldier/Marine over the course of 77 years, I’m given pause by our Nation’s compulsive involvement in a steady stream of violence, as it relates to our government’s military entanglements in combat operations “round-the-world”. During my lifetime there’s been 55 years in which my country has been engaged in prolonged and endless conflicts/wars; none of which bringing a decisive victory.

Often our Nation’s justification for their actions in these impetuous hostilities that have maimed, mutilated and killed millions of human beings; many of them innocent children, women and non-combatants; has been founded upon flimsy and inconsistent rhetoric, often lacking accurate, substantiated and verifiable data justifying the carnage and gore resultant from said government’s armed intrusions.

An objective analysis of the reason and rationale given for repeatedly invading and launching attacks upon a sovereign nation and their citizens, reveals that in many cases these assaults were ill-advised, imprudent and without merit.

The destructive and destabilizing consequences resultant from violent aggression around the world has left us with torn and shredded bodies, minds and civilizations. A dystopian wasteland of cultures torn apart, warring against one another, grasping for any respite in one’s suffering; is an absolutely horrible way to exist.

Lacking an authentic and legitimate cause for our government to assail another sovereign nation and kill its citizens, perhaps we should practice a degree of self-restraint, while competently engaging in diplomatic undertakings that can create a more relaxed and amicable relationship with other nations. Mutually advancing the goals and objectives that all human beings hold dear to their heart.

We’ve been warned by President of the United States and Supreme Allied Commander Dwight D. Eisenhower, along with United States Marine Corps Major General Smedley Butler who was awarded the Medal of Honor twice; about the murderously malignant influences exerted upon our government’s leaders and politicians by the Military Industrial Complex, in it’s pursuit of wealth and power. The determined effort and tireless perseverance by these corporate enterprises to create and maintain a world at war, knows no limit. Enormous budgets and sums of money are generated and shared with those supporting their programs of death and liquidation.

The financial profits of these ‘merchants of war’ are dependent upon political unrest, armed conflicts and protracted wars. When it comes to increasing their profit margins, butchery and bloodletting are the collateral damages that come with the territory.

The powerful monetary incentives provided by the Military Industrial and Corporate Complex to our politicians and their Political Action Committees (PACS) has compelled legislative and government compliance to their global agenda. This collaborative and imposing embodiment of evil, remains a clear and present danger, threatening our very survival as a nation.

This Memorial Day I will think of the United States Marines that bore the brutality of horrific combat wounds, as they painfully died alongside me. I will deliberate upon the suffering withstood by my father and grandfather, as they lay wounded next to soldiers that did not survive. I will reflect upon the sacrifice and gruesome deaths endured by all of our Soldiers, forever acknowledging the painful memories borne by our Gold Star Families.

Members of the Armed Forces that I had the honor and privilege to serve with, heroically and courageously carried out their duties under the greatest of hardships. Many of these brave soldiers were injured or wounded in combat, sometimes losing their lives.

The hallowed and bloodstained ground upon which the sacrifice of these Warriors took place, were made in the hope that if they prevailed in their fight, a peaceful resolution of hostilities might end their war. Allowing them to return home, sharing the gift of peace with their families and countrymen, as they attempted to pass this ‘blessing’ along to the many allied nations fighting alongside them in Vietnam.

Some of us calculated and projected that perhaps a safer and more tranquil world might emerge from our sacrifice. We sought an end to the slaughter of our countrymen and all those embroiled in this endless conflict, which had become our 16 year war in Vietnam.

Many of us wanted to believe that our battlefield experiences might have some positive meaning and purpose, perhaps providing some video evidence, depicting the barbaric inhumanity that actually constitutes an armed conflict. Hoping all nations would begin to think through the horrific consequences of war. Patiently and earnestly seeking a fair and friendly resolutions to the differences that nations may have, is far better than killing one another.

Self-Actualized leaders guide and direct their people based on the love, trust and respect that they mutually have for one-another. They not only avoid involving their citizens in war, they promote peaceful types of de’tente through their “wisdom based interactions and relationships” on the world-stage.

Many of us believed that through our service and sacrifice, a family member or loved might be able to avoid being conscripted and drafted into the military and forced to engage in the dysfunctional war occurring in Vietnam.

Others believed that our government would learn from their mistakes, and not wage anymore questionable and unnecessary wars without a clear justification and purpose. Particularly, when said action lacked predetermined military objectives capable of securing victory and peace.

Unfortunately, the crippling incompetence and lack of foresight demonstrated in Vietnam was evidenced again in the Iraqi and Afghanistan Wars. The destructive toll of these wars remain immeasurable.

We’ve spent 45 years killing, being killed and laying waste to all things good in these aforementioned wars. And what do we have to show for it???

As Memorial Day approaches, the number of servicemen/women “Killed in Action” continues to increase. Preserving the lives of our Soldiers, along with the millions of innocents slaughtered by our violent and aggressive incursions, hasn’t been a prioritized concern held by the powers that be.

Cultivating peaceful relations and economic prosperity, along with advancing cultural and qualitative pursuits of life in our nation and throughout the world will never be achieved, if we continue to cower and align ourselves with the forces of ‘greed and darkness’ impaneled and driven by the Military Industrial Complex.

The disappointment, frustration and betrayal felt by many will not deter us from identifying and expressing the ‘truth’, as we have witnessed and experienced it. Etched in the annals of American History are the names of those members of our Armed Forces who’ve given and lost everything, so the Dream that was once America might not be vanquished from the annals of history.

On this Memorial Day I’ll once again reflect upon the profound sorrow I have for the Marines I lost and those that suffer under ‘war violence’. The sadness and heartache I have for my departed comrades will forever remain with me. I’ve attempted to carry-on as best I can, striving to emulated in my personal life the ‘spirit and brotherhood ethos’ we selflessly shared with one another on the field of battle.

Coming up short of my goal as I often do, I haven’t quit in my quest to reflect their courage and steadfast commitment to pick oneself up and continue moving forward in the light of adversity. Any commendable characteristics I may have acquired, were birthed and nurtured by a ‘baptism of fire’, under the tutelage of the Marines who protected and taught me the means by which I could effectively navigate in combat.

Inherent to my existence are the blood sacrifices made by these teachers. The extraordinary gratitude I harbor within my heart for the gift of life they safeguarded and preserved within me, will always be remembered.

Blessings & Respect to All, John Donnelly

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A Soldier’s Journey
~by John Donnelly

Prelude: The Pentagon now admits the drone strike ordered by the commander-in-chief in retaliation for the Afghan killing of 11 marines, 1 Navy corpsman and 1 soldier did not kill any terrorists but did kill 10 innocent civilians, including 7 children.

Sixteen years after my being wounded on a battlefield in Vietnam, I marched in a New York City parade tolled as an event to honor the Veterans of that war. This staged event ran shallow and flat.

After America’s tragic loss and bloodletting in Vietnam, details came to light regarding the questionable management of that war. Myself and the Marines I marched with had first-hand experiences with the ineffective policies proffered by our government in the prosecution of that war.

Of particular note was the “body count” strategy, which kept baseball type scoreboards posted in command posts tallying the numbers of Vietnamese killed each day, compared to our soldiers killed in action on that same day. A running tally was kept and displayed. This count would determine which side was winning the war.

This poorly thought-out strategy for the guerilla war-type action we fought in Vietnam was authored by desperately incompetent leaders, corrupted by their many years of ineffectiveness. It was rift with abuse and misapplication. It incentivized the killing of Vietnamese civilians in order to keep the numbers up. Washington just needed Asian bodies.

After the parade I searched the crowd for a familiar face. None were there. They had been left behind in the jungles of Southeast Asia.

I embraced my fellow Marines. We were filled with profonde emotion, and we reluctantly went our separate ways. We didn’t know what else to do. It was a bewildering scene of loss and waste, a disturbing and heartbreaking end to a barbaric and unnecessary war that lasted for 16 years.

During the subsequent years we waved American flags, had more patriotic events and parades, while enlisting politicians to positively spin and sugar coat the failed leadership and strategies that had brought defeat and suffering into our lives (and 2 million dead Vietnamese).

The firmly entrenched military industrial complex by means of its wealthy lobbyists, has never stopped pumping enormous sums of money into the hands of our politicians and their deep state allies. No matter what the casualties of war may be, victory or defeat, outrageous profits are guaranteed to the backers of this murderous enterprise.

Taxpayers fund this destructive complex and voters elect the politicians that carry out their wishes.

Yearly payments from those profiting from this military industrial complex to our politicians totals about  $153 million. These elected officials and their bureaucratic appointees are given this money to maintain the viability and aggressive nature of our war machine, as it seeks fulfillment in  targeted locations throughout the world. This quid pro quo arrangement has provided trillions of dollars of profit for the industries of war, while keeping the political class plush with cash. All these activities are funded by the American taxpayer. We’ve created this merciless and powerful corporate/political alliance.  Innocent children and families round the world have endured insurmountable suffering and death at their hands.

Classified documents now detail the lies and misinformation given to the American people regarding the Gulf of Tonkin Incident that got us into the shooting war in Vietnam. Remember the weapons of mass destruction lies from Iraq? Untruths manipulated by our politicians to warrant an invasion and occupation of Iraq for 8 years.

After 20 years of slaughter, we’re suffering another debacle and defeat in Afghanistan. Americans were abandoned and left behind enemy lines, as our military hastily retreated, leaving those stranded to be captured and imprisoned as hostages. Reprisals against them have been initiated. Door to door searches are being conducted to located these forsaken Americans and their allies. Murders of those forsaken have already begun.

The residue of another dark humiliation and uneasiness are upon us and the rest of the world at the hands of our illustrious leadership in Washington. Remember the “mission creep” justifications given to extend the bloodletting in that nation? America was going to maintain a presence there in order to “democratize the Afghan tribes and people”.

My experience, analysis and assessment have brought me to a point where I can no longer perpetuate the myth that our government leaders, military elites, politicians and deep state operatives; authentically value and care about the well-being of the men and women they send off to be slaughtered fighting in these worthless wars.

Waving flags, saying nice things and paying one’s respect to the fallen and wounded members of our Armed Forces are the right things to do. However, it doesn’t heal nor bring back to life those barbarically killed in battle. It doesn’t put back together the torn bodies and minds of those seriously wounded in combat.

Déjà vu and common sense lent clarity to the impending disaster that awaited us if we invaded Iraq. Seeking some relief from my internal pain, I stood on US 1 for 30 days with my Purple Heart and United States Marine regalia, protesting against the anticipated invasion of that nation. Reckless, incompetent and ignorant leadership from America’s top executives, eventually swayed the American public to believe their WMD lies and misinformation. These corrupt and feckless amateurs, posing as responsible members of society pulled the trigger; initiating a devastatingly destructive invasion of Iraq. This bloodbath has seriously destabilized the entire region up to and including today. Some say that was the start of World War III.

During my lifetime the ruling class has been paid handsomely from their war mongering. But not so much for those considered the “disposable others”.

War materials will continue to be massively produced, purchased and profited from, as our lap dog government leaders lick the boots and grovel for the crumbs beneath the tables of their money masters. These engineers of war will collaborate and target their next location to launch another police action, conflict, or war. These instruments of death will continue to be purchased and dispatched for the killing that awaits those forced to endure our next ill-conceived military assault and occupation.

These dastardly deeds are compliments of an American citizenry that accepts and tolerates murderous decisions, lies and barbarous conduct from their leaders. The politicians our electorate continues to vote back into office, are in many instances, the same flawed lackeys deficient in integrity, honor and ethics, who continue to perpetuate these endless cycles of war and unrest.

These politicians do exactly what they’re paid and told to do. They’ll continue to receive money, backing and support from their industry bosses. These charlatans are in fact only cheap two-bit frauds serving as hired guns on the payroll of their corporate masters to keep spinning the engines of war.

A Godless and inhumane nation will rot from within. The societal structures enabling this malfeasance will crumble under the weight of its perversion and decadence. A culture that sanctions policies, which sets its soldiers up for failure or, as we have seen, to be killed and wounded while causing death to innocent children and civilians, is not fit to maintain its viability as a nation.

Not allowing for a robust debate, concerning these issues of life and death, has allowed government leaders to set the narrative and act barbarically. They’re not asked hard penetrating questions, nor are their statements authentically evaluated and challenged.

Repression of free speech, along with censoring and punishing individual’s right to express their ideas, while causing them to live with the fear of being harmed and injured for their beliefs, delegitimizes the legal authority of a civilized nation to govern them.

Our rapid decline and descent into servitude is not an exaggeration, nor a secret. Unfortunately, many citizens of a once noble and self-determined nation have become willing accomplices for their government and corporate overlords.

The departure from a nation that once prioritized and codified our individual rights and liberties as citizens, along with the malevolent policies and decisions generated by, what appears to be, a tyrannous leaning central government; have all culminated in a strategic plan division that has divided and pitted Americans against one another; while the real threats to our peace, tranquility and freedom remain hidden in plain view.

In honoring the Soldiers killed during the Battle of Gettysburg, Abraham Lincoln identified their sacrifice as having been made so: “That a government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the earth”.

Reconciling myself with President Lincoln’s words, while processing my experiences as a member of a family that was awarded 5 Purple Hearts over 3 successive generations, I’m forced to deal with another double-dealing betrayal in the form of our defeat in Afghanistan. The trauma and stress triggered within every Veteran I’ve spoken to by a series of long-standing betrayals, treachery and disloyal conduct, have cut to and ripped out the souls of the men, women and families.

Simultaneously, our government leaders and media pundits are relentlessly focusing on ginning-up their divisive rhetoric and fear based narrative, while ridiculing the ideas and lives of many millions of Americans with whom they disagree. An objective and analytical analysis of the facts exhibits the many twisted ideas and distortions these malcontents offer as truths. As a point of reference, a section of the testing on the college boards when I took them was identified as “analytical reasoning”. I secured a perfect score.

Our insane obsession with war, coupled with the shear madness of a new normal mandating immediate obedience to an overreaching government, has brought us to the tipping point. Left unchecked these fatal de-evolutions will turn our country into a iron-fist-ruled wasteland. Abandoning what is right for convenience’s sake, or just to get along, will be the cause of a gradual and painful death for the liberty we once enjoyed.

We’ve got a blueprint and design for living that can restore our nation’s honor and integrity. This outline is set forth in detail via the law of our land, enumerated with so much specificity in our Constitution and Bill of Rights.

The disturbing realignment of America has caused me to shift my priorities. I’m wearing the garments of this material world lightly, while riding loosely in the saddle of life. I’m discarding the delusive nature of what some term reality, while uplifting and expanded my consciousness and spirituality with the assistance of my God. Seeking to broaden my understanding and deepen my relationship with the Creator has been reassuring and rewarding.

On one level, I’m grateful for all the betrayal, treachery, lies and political underhandedness that our government and media are responsible for. It has helped me to get my mind right. In a way, it has been the blessing I’ve been seeking. I’ve been forced to seek peace and comfort from its only true and original source. Looking outward for something that can only be found within is a fool’s errand. Pursuing, getting glimpses, and wanting to love God, is a good thing.

April 26, 2022
The Russian Invasion of Ukraine knocked me off my mark, delaying the continuation of “A Soldier’s Story”. As with many citizens round the world, visualizing the shelling, killing and decaying corpses of children and innocent civilians in the streets is traumatizing.

Nothing has been learned regarding the futility and insanity of war. Throughout our lives we’ve been chronically terrorized by endless cycles of violence and murder. Unimaginable bloodshed contorting bodies into macabre resemblances of themselves, are regularly featured via our modern age outlets. It almost appears that this type of savagery has become an acceptable norm.

Consumption and remembrances of many years of bloodshed has spiritually whittled down my Spirit. Once again, our brilliantly distinguished government leaders, along with every other leader in the world, could not find within themselves the means to diplomatically present an attractive alternative forestalling the invasion and killing of innocent Ukrainian children, mothers and grandparents.

I’ve noticed that these world leaders like to regularly fly around the globe in their massive planes with an enormous security detail and entourage, boasting of their magnificence at these G-7, G-8 and G-9 summits. Perhaps it would serve a more utilitarian purpose, if these “guardians of the gate” were required to view and comment on the world’s collective slaughter, which has occurred on their watch. .

It’s time for an alleged free press and media to finally do their jobs and hold these leaders accountable for their contributions to the atrocities, conflicts, and world unrest that we’ve been made to endure.

They’ve been responsible for too many live performances of mothers and grandmothers being gunned down in the street. With a backdrop of children begging and pleading for their lives, in the hope that they might be spared an agonizing death…

December 28, 2021

A journey begins with its first step. Vacuous upon initiating a course of travel, we are not. Unable to escape karmic and congenital influences, nor choose the teachings, indoctrinations, cultural beliefs and conditionings of my birth, I settled in for an obstinate, turbulent and exciting childhood in the South Bronx.

Both grandfathers were wounded in combat fighting against the Germans in World War I. On D-Day, my father took part in the Normandy Invasion. He was later wounded during the Battle of the Bulge. Three rounds fired from a soldier’s submachine gun struck him in the solar plexus. On that night he had been assigned to a listening post located outside the American perimeter, monitoring movements of the Third Reich’s 500,000 soldiers, which were forming up to engage in Hitler’s planned offensive designed to split and encircle the allied forces. This compelling and strategically forceful German assault initially breached the American lines, advancing some 50 miles into allied controlled territory before they were stopped. All the marbles were on the line, Hitler was determined to spare Germany from a devastating defeat and negotiate a favorable peace treaty.

Wounds such as my father received at that time meant certain death. However, he managed to crawl back towards the American perimeter, getting hung up and entangled on the barbwire that surrounded their position. He laid outstretched at a 45-degree angle, upper torso turned downward, with blood gushing from his nose and mouth. He was helpless and dying, not being able to free himself from the wire’s grasp.

A comrade-in-arms made his way forward and cut my father’s clothing free from the serrated clutches of steel imprisoning him. He was rescued and transported to England alive–miraculously recovering from his combat injuries.  He was restored to active duty and assigned to a Mounted Military Police Unit, patrolling the Russian and German boarders on horseback after the war. Eventually my father returned to the United States and had me.

All of my uncles having served in the South Pacific welcomed my father back home. They all joined in and celebrated the birth of his first born son.

Please allow me to skip ahead and lead into an article entitled “A Soldier’s Journey”. At brief intervals during the upcoming months, I will attempt to bring everyone up-to-date with snippets that fill in the gaps leading up to the start of that Journey.

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